As some of you may have noticed, over the last month or so things have not been hunky dory in our world. In fact far from it. Since September I have been fighting for a project to work out that really meant the make or break of my career goals that I have been working on for 4 years. On top of which we have a family member who is dying and my beloved Mr T is going through something which has raised his anxiety levels to an all time high. Life has become a constant pressure pot where someone has been raising the heat just a little every day.
In short, it’s been hard…… Damn hard.
And for me the breaking of my career dreams has the point where everything simply boiled over and the walls came tumbling down.
After many tears and raging at the universe, Mr T and anyone else that has been willing to listen for the last 6 months. I have reached the enough is enough point. And today I have surrendered.
Even though many people believe what has been happening to me is unfair and wrong. I am actually giving up. I have fought long and hard, but nothing is budging. So I surrendered the fight.
And it feels great!
The funny thing is when we hear the phrase “give up” or surrender we often tend to think of it as a negative thing. “You can do it”, “Just keep believing in yourself”, “If you want it fight for it” is often the response to such a statement. And I would agree. At the beginning. But after 6 months of banging my head against the brick wall of bureaucracy. It is time for me to read the room differently. And when I took that perspective I could suddenly see that this blooming, frustrating brick wall of BS is actually a message from the universe that this thing you are fighting for is not actually right for me.
This stepping back perspective. This surrendering in the fight. Actually gave me complete clarity to realign with my original dreams. It has got me back on my path. And it reminded me that truly the only thing that really matters to me is enjoying my journey and loving my life.
Surrendering has actually given me the freedom to enjoy my life!
Now it has taken a huge leap of faith to do this. Faith that by stepping back the universe will provide. It basically means I have to trust that being put back onto financial survival mode is going to be a positive thing in my life. And that is not easy when my survival instincts are in panic mode.
However, if I am going to get any kind of win from this fight. That’s what I have to do. I have to put my faith in the universe first. Then find a logical way to deal with the mundane of less income. And take the opportunity it provides of more time.
Surrendering to accepting what I can’t change,
Stepping back and looking for the opportunity,
Rerooting in myself and my true path in life,
Has given me not only the best night’s sleep in months,
But also the drive and motivation to follow my dreams in a different way!
Now I am not saying you should not fight for you dreams. You damn well should. But if you find the universe keeps blocking you. That things are not working out to plan. Or you are ending up in the same old destructive cycle. This is the point where taking a step back. Letting go of the frustration. Trusting the universe. Re-assessing what it is you truly need and want and then looking for the opportunity to follow your dream differently, is the way forward.
You have to choose your battles carefully. And every good general knows that sometimes retreating, regrouping and reorganising is the way to win.
What is not working if you life right now? What it the universe trying to tell you? And how can you find the opportunity in this situation to find a new way of doing something ? What is going to give you the freedom to enjoy your life?
Let me know in the comments below
Have a great weekend <3
4 thoughts on “#lifelessons101 : Sometimes surrendering the fight is the way to win the fight”
This is beautiful. We have so many of the same things going on the last few months. We’ll since Jan first, has been one shit thing after another.
I’ve just laid in bed crying going I give up. I don’t have the energy to fight this anymore.
And I felt release
I won’t bore on here.
But thank you for you’re wisdom. Love and light you beautiful and strong witch, goddess and priestess. Keep shining that light .
Loads of love
Cate c xxx
Let’s keep lifting each other <3
I think it’s very honorable for you to do this and look on the situation from a different point of you of ”giving up”.
”every good general knows that sometimes retreating, regrouping and reorganising is the way to win” – wow.
Keep it up!
Thanks 🙂 It hasn’t been easy but I feel so much better for doing this 🙂